sister found alive

at 551am i should be in bed asleep but here i am at the keyboard. phone calls at 230 in the morning are never a good thing. the horrible sound of my telephone rings at 230. it's mom. it's about sister. it's not good. sister leaves a suicide note at dad's house. she's nowhere to be found and her car (which apparently was involved in a hit-and-run accident a couple hours earlier) is still parked in front of the house. mom spares me the details of the suicide note. you hear the words 'suicide note' and that's all you need to hear. i'm sure mom said more during the phone call but it was all a blur of noise. i don't know what to do. do i leave and make the 2 hour drive north to be with mom and dad? where is sister? is she dead? alive? the experience was surreal. i hang up and lay back down. tossing. turning. i'm hot and then i'm cold. what is happening?
phone rings at 530am. this is it. is she alive? has she been found? is she dead? has she been found? mom says sister has been found. police say an empty bottle of prescrip painkillers was on the floor of the car. sister is alive.
i have to go. i have to be at work in an hour.

mc
"how strange it is to be anything at all"