23 August 2006

a question

How is the screenplay going?
How is the screenplay going?
How is the screenplay going?
How is the screenplay going?
How is the screenplay going?
How is the screenplay going?

Fuck.

I don't know what has happened, D.

This is the sound of temperature dropping.
This is the sound of something freezing.
Locking.
A cessation of movement.
Of creativity.
And quite frankly, I'm scared.
The ghosts of self-loathing have returned and to avoid them, I've resigned myself to petty distractions.
An overdose of television.
Endless hours surfing the world wide web of shit.
And sometimes I'll go to my room, crawl into bed, cover myself with blankets, and wish for...

I spent nearly three weeks freewriting: seated at my typewriter I was a vessel, typing anything and everything that came to mind regarding my screenplay. Bits and pieces. Slices of monologue. Dialogue. Visions. Actions. Developments. Choices. Scenes and sequences.
Then, satisfied with the background info, I decided to begin working on the actual screenplay.


FADE IN:

The sound of a ringing alarm clock.

INT. DOE'S BEDROOM - AFTERNOON

We see a figure in bed, covered with blankets from head to toe...



I typed two pages and the following day, well, everything fell apart.
My previous post reflected a terrifying moment of dispossession. It was as if I had evacuated my body and slipped inside the flesh of someone else. Bad thoughts were abound. Thoughts of escape. Retreat. Self-annihilation. Bad thoughts.
And as I type this, I'm attempting to collect the pieces. My creative process is a visual one and at this moment, I'm blind. However, I feel something shifting, albeit slowly, but a transformation is occurring inside. I can feel it. I'm regaining something.

I appreciate your concern, D. I really do. When I have one of those "moments," I'm the loneliest man in the world. I feel like a mannequin in a department store at closing time. The fluorescence dies, one department at a time, and there's this feeling of a "closing in."
A foreboding collapse.
And it's terrifying.
And trapped in those moments, I'm helpless.
I'm a plastic mannequin.
Frozen.
Trapped.

But I can feel a shifting. Inside.
I'm regaining something.
I can feel it.

mc

21 August 2006

another apology

The weight of all my errors is crushing me -- and I'm sorry.

Why would anyone wish to contaminate themselves with my glaring imperfections, deformities and distortions?

Looking for the RESET switch. The POWER button. The DELETE key. The beginning.

I wish I knew what happened. And how. And why.

I'm trapped and the only way to escape this is to bleed out. Fast. Purge. Drain. Something.

I want everyone to disappear, yet I need you all.

But cliches are often ignored.

18 August 2006

eerie

The following story was posted at 1:15 pm EDT August 17, 2006 on WSBTV.com. (Direct link)

Psychic Dorothy Allison believed she knew what JonBenet's killer looked like and provided a sketch to the Ramsey family, based on her visions.
The Ramsey family Web site published the sketch, asking the public, "Have you seen this man? This man may have been in the Boulder area in December 1996."
The sketch was also given to Boulder police, who continued to insist that nobody outside the family was likely involved in the crime.
A comparison of the sketch side-by-side with that of a picture of suspect John Karr appears to show remarkable resemblance.
Allison originally came up with the sketch during a 1998 appearance on the nationally syndicated Leeza Gibbons Show. Allison died a year later.
The Ramsey family Web site at www.ramseyfamily.com was used to publish press releases as well as ads and flyers the Ramseys sent out in search for their daughter's killer in the spring and fall of 1997. One of the flyers contained the sketch given by Allison. The Ramsey family let the domain name of the Web site expire in 2004.
Four years before JonBenet's death, Allison assisted El Paso County investigators in the investigation of the slaying of Heather Dawn Church.
''In 30 years, I've never had accurate information from a psychic,'' a veteran law enforcement officer told The Denver Post in 1995. ''But the information by Dorothy Allison was right on the money.''
Robert Browne was later arrested and convicted in the killing of Church. Last month he admitted killing as many as 49 people across the United States.
In another strange twist in the Ramsey case, the man who originally arrested Brown in the Church slaying joined the investigation team looking into the slaying of JonBenet. He said he always believed an intruder was responsible for the crime.

09 August 2006

acoustic clock

See Mr Thom Yorke perform a live acoustic version of "The Clock" H E R E From this page you can also search "Yorke" and discover a live performance of "Cymbal Rush" (with Johnny Greenwood) as well as several web exclusive interviews with Thom.

mc

delectable duo

Ahhhh yes...There's something about Mogwai and Darren Aronofsky (writer/director of Pi and Requiem for a Dream) joining forces that sends a chill up my spine. Mogwai, playing music scored by Clint Mansell (Aronofsky's constant soundtrack composer), will be featured in Aro's upcoming film The Fountain. This film looks be the mainstream breakthrough that puts Aronofsky over the top and into the upper echelon of filmmakers. A definite "must see."

Go HERE to view the trailer

mc

08 August 2006

03 August 2006

epic

Go HERE and check out Muse's latest video, "Knights of Cydonia." The song is smokin' and the video is 1/3 Eastwood's For a Few Dollars More, 1/3 Wu-Tang and 1/3 Star Wars -- seriously. Check it out.

02 August 2006

9.8.7.6.5.4.3.2.1.0>>T R A N S M I T

Dear Viewer,

As you may have noticed, the_sky_is_a_television_signal's posting frequency has diminished considerably over the past month. This can be attributed to two factors.
Firstly, much of my spare time has been spent seated with my loyal typewriter (a beautiful piece of expired ingenuity and man's best friend). I've finally begun constructing a screenplay and surprisingly, the process has been smooth and fluid. I'm hesitant to expound on any specific details for fear of pigeonholing, and possibly dooming the sketchy and as yet undeveloped components of the story. However, I truly believe in what I'm writing and I hope this determination will carry me to the end.
Secondly, the future is a chapter constantly unfolding and any attempts to capture and pen my current situation would be vain and unwise. Moreover, few, if any of you, would find my personal circumstances believable; I myself find it difficult to fathom. But I wouldn't have it any other way.

Moving on...After consuming Mr Thom Yorke's The Eraser for over two weeks (nonstop, btw), I decided to satisfy my vinyl craving and purchased the following LPs:
Orchestral Manoeuvres in the Dark's O.M.D, Architecture and Morality and Dazzle Ships (all original pressings)
Godspeed You Black Emperor!'s Slow Riot for New Zero Kanada EP
Siouxsie and the Banshees' Kaleidoscope (original pressing)
Sonic Youth's Murray Street
The Velvet Underground's Loaded (bullshit re-release, but at least I own it)
Miles Davis' Bitches Brew (original pressing![despite owning the compact disc version, I had to pick up this classic work on luscious vinyl])
Also, I finally bought Sigur Ros' amazing 2005 release Takk. Why did it take nearly a year to purchase this album? No idea, but now it's in my player. Listening to this album, or any of their albums for that matter, takes me back to 20 February 2006, in a balcony seat at the Murat...An unbelievable performance. If you've ever wanted to know what miracles sound like, see Sigur Ros live. (Sidenote: The band recently concluded a series of free concerts in their homeland (Iceland). One of the performances featured Sigur Ros playing with a local marching band. Check out the pics HERE.)

And finally, the_sky_is_a_television_signal plans to post periodically (well, maybe sporadically) so don't forget about me. In the meantime, all viewer transmissions can be sent to my digital hub @ TheSkyIsATelevisionSignal@gmail.com.

Your humbled satellite,
mc
(And may peace swim in your shadows)